Monthly Archives: October 2014

My Wonderful Horoscope


In Retrospect

Yesterday you invented a new astrological sign. Today, write your own horoscope — for the past month (in other words, as if you’d written it October 1st).

Sagittarius Horoscope:

The month of October is going to be of of 31 days.As the month goes ahead you shall feel cold.The nights will be longer.November shall follow this month There will be festivals so you shall be happier.You may be sad at some times also.Some days will be luckier than others.You may consult other horoscope sites for more.

Am I ?


Am I happy

Am I sad

Am I good

Or  am  I bad

Am I god fearing

Or an atheist

Am I in love

Or out of it

Am I in a daze

Or am I numb

Is it just a phase

Or am I dumb

Am I mad

Have I lost my mind

Is it a passing fad

Or I am one of my kind

I don’t want to give up on life

I want to live it well

Don’t want to lose it all

In happiness I want to dwell.

Visions Of Life.


Today I was woken up at 3am by my husband. He was in pain. A kidney stone had blocked the ureter causing him extreme discomfort. I gave him an injection of a painkiller. He slept for an hour and again the pain was back. So we thought of him getting admitted in the hospital. It was then my nightmare started. As I packed his stuff , he was writhing in pain. It was scary looking at him helpless. A tall well built man, he is always in charge of every situation. But seeing him so dependent made me extremely uncomfortable. As we sat in the car, staring out if the window I could see various visions of life, life which others were leading and I had lead. Life which others were leading and I would lead.

Mothers happily playing with their children.

School going kids,full of life. All crowding at an ice cream shop and completely unaware of what was going around them.

Then there were young boys and girls hanging out together. There was romance in the air around them.

From across the road I could see married couples arguing.

There were bored shopkeepers living the mundane existence.

An old man limped in front of our car. Quickly I applied the brakes, barely missing him.

And then there was me. Stuck in a strange situation at yet another stage in life. Where had the playfulness of childhood gone. When did we stop being romantic. What happened to all those years of marriage. What I could see was my future in the old man . A shudder went down my spine. We live our lives mechanically, without pausing to enjoy the moments. without taking out a minute to stand and stare. When the glorious years of youth go by and the twilight years come, we are busy in our daily grind. We never stop to smell a flower. Look at a rainbow or breathe in the scent of wet earth.

My rigamarole did not end there. Getting my husband admitted in the hospital was another nightmare. As I walked the perfectly panelled corridors of the hospital all I could see was illness, debility and old age. Obviously, it was a hospital and that was what I was supposed to see. But when all is good and we are busy in our lives , not once this vision crosses our mind. So much is going around in the world around us and do we bother?

We cannot avoid this reality of life ,but we can at least be a part of lives of others who need us.

Make a pledge to help the old,care for the ill and be a support to the infirm. All of us at some point of time will go into a state of decrepitude. So prepare yourself for the inevitable. Its better that way.

Nothing lasts forever.

“What is this life if full of care; we have no time to stand and stare.” These famous lines from the poem Leisure by W H Davis sum up my attitude towards life.


P.S. The husband has a surgery today.I write this sitting outside his room as the doctors examine him.

        Hope everything turns out fine.

The Rosary.

The Rosary.

I close my eyes waiting for slumber,but there outside I can hear thunder.

It scares me and I am wide awake , I pull up the duvet and wait for the storm to abate.

And then to deviate my mind, I start thinking of my next day.

What I have to do tomorrow I dwell as on my bed I lay.

And then out of the blue a strange negativity grips me.

Oh no there it was again , I was on that depressive spree.

I consciously try to distract myself and hordes of thoughts crowd my mind

.I have to pick a thought to follow, but nothing worthwhile I can find.

And then suddenly I see flashes of color, and oh I know I have found my nemesis.

I am venturing into the past ,and the future seemed full of therapists.

It was then I find the rosary under my pillow,

My mind fills with relief and I know what to follow.

As the brown beads roll between my fingers ,relief creeps up my spine,

My mind clears , my body relaxes and I feel sublime.

Never a fanatic , nor an atheist,

It is strange how the rosary helps me .

All negativity my mind  transcends,

The string of beads then on became my best friend.

Share Your World – 2014 Week 43


What is your favorite time of day?

What’s your favorite charitable cause and why?

How do you like to spend a rainy day?

When writing by hand do you prefer to use a pencil or pen?

Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

My answers:

I love late nights when everybody is asleep and I can do my own thing. I love to be alone with my laptop, the TV on at mute and sipping on some warm milk.

My favorite charitable cause is feeding street dogs. More so now since I have lost my pet Lhasa Snowy.Dogs love selflessly and those warm eyes are so full of affection..

A rainy day is best spent at home with a hot cup of tea and some pakoras which are fried indian snacks.

I love to write with a nice ball point pen.

I am grateful for achieving the 100 follower mark last week.Looking forward to more writing in the coming weeks and a lot of interaction with my fellow bloggers.