my fears….a diary entry

 

The negativity surrounds. me….fear of death? Or the fear of losing it all….Then I look around and see so many other mortals…going about with their daily chores as if they have nothing to fear. Really!!! They go on seeing the sunrise and enjoying the sunset. They adorn their bodies with beautiful stuff, enjoy seeing in the mirror, relish good food. They look forward to a nice weekend, plan for their kids and have a blast. And me…. I keep waiting for the world to end. I fret it. I am so scared that I forget to live. I just see the end of the tunnel. I forget to see how beautiful is the road… The journey…
I know we all shall end the same way. . But maybe there us something better after the tunnel ends . Maybe a different world with all my fore fathers. Maybe a heaven unheard of … unseen. And if I live a good life maybe so I will be rewarded with a paradise.. so beautiful and perfect that I don’t miss my earlier life any more.
So today on , I will live this journey so perfectly and beautifully, that I will receive a perfect afterlife as a gift.
I shall do my duties , care for my near and dear ones without expectation and make this life a paradise on earth. I will set the bar so high that when I leave this world I go to a place better than this. After all when you really want something so bad … the whole universe transpires to give it to you . Yes, I am hungry for more. Yes…yes…yes…I am.