beyond their years

my mind baffles me

when

I think of my dad 

and curse the gods 

for taking him away so soon

and

my usual merciful self 

refuses to be forgiving

for

those very gods have allowed 

many to live

beyond their years

 

egocentric

 

throughout the day

I need

the company of others

but

when night falls

I retire to my room

alone

with my thoughts

and my laptop

to create

a make-believe world

with my words

only for me

and

when the day dawns

I return to my people

for helping me

to make it through the day…

… till the night falls

 

thoughts and poetry

my hand wavers

on the keyboard

as

I aspire

to write

a pathbreaking poem

but

poetry

is my diary

and

I would always

pen my thoughts

the way i think them

 

Ah!

Ah !

how I relish

the silence between us

that speaks

a thousand words

it’s all in the mind!

I may have aged

but

in my heart

I will always be

a young girl

your love

you loved me

but

not the way

I envisioned

live dream achieve

go, leave

make a life for yourself

live dream achieve

say those words to the world

thanking us

your parents …

…visit the home

when we are old or gone

tell all

we meant the world to you

but

no one will know

how each minute of our lives

we missed

you being with us

our children

growing up

they

never leave our side

and

we have no time

for ourselves

until

one day

they go away

to make their own lives

and we

have all the unwanted time

in the world

beautiful no more

all my life

I tried

to be beautiful

and then

age grounded me

sixteen in her mind

she was sixteen

bubbling with youth

and beauty

until

she looked into the mirror

and

realised

it was all in her mind

and

youth had left her

years ago