her avatar

a simple metal pendant

faded red lips

sun tanned skin

old sari

chipped nails

discoloured nail paint

threadbare shawl

but those eyes

looking around

for someone

who would

like her

in that avatar

un-beautiful

it evolved slowly

or the mindset changed

of beauty

for

I was un-beautiful before

and then

one day

it changed 

loveless

life became easier

when

I stopped loving

 

no love

can you

ever

love the one

who

eons ago

bruised your body and mind

in love with myself

I have loved others

to the point of madness

but

now is the time

to fall in love

with myself 

connection

walking along

the crowded roads

a sea of people

in their own worlds

a microcosm

they carry

with them,

detached…

…yet connected…

by life

Silhouettes

I repeatedly

Look into the stained mirror

Above

The sink

At my workplace

And

Into the car rear view mirror

Into

The sunglasses

My daughter wears

Reflections

Caught in the

Shop windows

But

I see

What I am

An ageing woman

Whose youth

Is

Now dwindling

And

The silhouettes

Too

Don’t favour her

Anymore

read my mind

if you could

look

into my heart

and

read my mind

maybe

you would

never

hurt me

lullaby

those sleepless nights

twisting and turning

in bed

ghosts of the past

giving me company

and me

waiting

for 

the  angels

to sing 

me a lullaby 

time

it just slips away

the time

we have

on our hands

so

lets promise

ourselves today

to

make each moment

worthwhile