I need to-feel complete
After years of subordination
Marriage does that to you
Women are mostly bossed around
Finding peace is difficult
But learn to be your own boss
Learn to say no to things that are out of bounds
Learn to be complete in yourself
blurred photographs
of the good old days
sharp memories
memories are unique
sometimes happy sometimes sad
better to live in the present
I survive by
weaving my way into the bylanes
of childhood memories
smiles and laughter
children making memories in
the sun dappled courtyard
lazing in the shadows
of the cedar tree
the cool mountain air
and the sun dappled parasol
a perfect moment in time
and
I wish for a wormhole
to travel back
into time
to a similar moment
with a younger me
snuggling in my mother’s lap
and dreaming
what the future will hold
on my birthday
I look at you both with affection
my sisters
a reminiscent
of my parent’s existence
a constant reminder
that we were born
of the same love
between two people
who no longer stay
in the mortal world
your tiny feet…I can still hear them
running on the cold stone floors
of our old home
and those eyes …looking up to me
from every direction
but
now
I dont know when you come and go out of the house
I pine to spend time with you my baby
but i guess
you are a man now
so fly
make your own world
and leave me with the memories
of the glorius bygone days
the monsoon breeze
the intoxicating scent of petrichor
a perfect trip down memory lane
when age knocks
my mind goes back in time
reliving glorious memories
