beyond their years

my mind baffles me

when

I think of my dad 

and curse the gods 

for taking him away so soon

and

my usual merciful self 

refuses to be forgiving

for

those very gods have allowed 

many to live

beyond their years

 

your love

you loved me

but

not the way

I envisioned

our children

growing up

they

never leave our side

and

we have no time

for ourselves

until

one day

they go away

to make their own lives

and we

have all the unwanted time

in the world

un-beautiful

it evolved slowly

or the mindset changed

of beauty

for

I was un-beautiful before

and then

one day

it changed 

loveless

life became easier

when

I stopped loving

 

in love with myself

I have loved others

to the point of madness

but

now is the time

to fall in love

with myself 

lullaby

those sleepless nights

twisting and turning

in bed

ghosts of the past

giving me company

and me

waiting

for 

the  angels

to sing 

me a lullaby 

time

it just slips away

the time

we have

on our hands

so

lets promise

ourselves today

to

make each moment

worthwhile

the child

I saw

childhood

begging on the streets

running nose

torn clothes

those tender feet

blistered

disheveled hair

I looked

for a sign

of hope

and there it was

in his eyes

the child in him

was speaking to me

a breath

what matters the most

…in the beginning

and in the end…

a breath